But why haven’t I consistently lived as though He is?
Two weeks ago, I consciously began my ‘Healing,’ journey. Of course I believe the Lord was already at work within me. However, on June 14, I knew He was urging an, “okay Kali, time’s up. Be brave. Be free. Heal, and grow.”
So I purchased a new journal for this journey, and I doodled, HEALING, at the top of the first page, as it was envisioned to me.
I mostly write in my previous prayer journal. But whenever Jesus is exposing my heart, teaching me, or even encouraging me to help another heal by His power; I will grab my healing journal.
What does a healing journey have anything to do with Jesus being enough, or style?
Well, last friday I was an emotional wreck.
I was accepting a slow drift into depression. The Holy Spirit was fiercely fighting for me by giving me His word at the first thought that was not of God. Initially pride kicked in as I began believing that I was okay, and that I could handle this pain all by myself. Later that night I finally picked back up the armor of God provided to
me all believers in His word..
“And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we’ll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. Be prepared. You’re up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it’s all over but the shouting you’ll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You’ll need them throughout your life. God’s Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.”
I knew that Jesus has been working faithfully in me for years, for me to go back, especially without a fight. I KNEW the truth, and I decided to not deny the Lord any longer, but allow Him to heal me.
I remember praying and crying out hard to God. Unexpectedly, out of my mouth yelled, “WHY ISN’T JESUS ENOUGH?!” I shockingly paused because I wouldn’t naturally ask myself that. I can confidently say on any and every day that He is enough. I can even tell others how Jesus is enough! But it was a true heart check from the Lord.
“If Jesus was truly enough, you would consistently trust that He loves you, and cares about the plans for your life. So while you are thinking that because things haven’t worked out in the way that you desired, rest. Be content. Things are working according to His will, always.”
I’ve been healing from the bondage of opinions; whether they derive from people, our culture and media, or even myself! So of course Jesus would have me to shoot in this super bold print, on print, on print, on texture, on vibrant colors, and abstract designs, look.
He reminded me of what a woman recently stated to me and my best friend Lilian (photographed above) in the airport, on our way to Atlanta for the 2015 Pinky Promise Conference. Intrigued she asked where we were going. I told her. She then said, “y’all don’t look like no Christians.” Not offensively but really in a questioning tone. I replied, “well this is what new Christians look like,” while inviting her to attend next year. Haha!
But it reminded me of my purpose and to be brave in being exactly who God is molding me to be.
You and I may not fit into today’s perception of what a Christian is to look like. But, we are here and we love Jesus and Jesus loves us.
Jesus’ opinion and approval of what I wear daily is ENOUGH. I am healing and free from anything other that His word and His leading. I still love ya!
Outerwear – Dillard’s
Top, Bottoms, and Bag – Forever21
Shoes – Puma
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May God’s grace & peace be with you all!